Downward Spiral

: You're alone. :: Are u? : At least in this. :: Are u? ....What's wrong? : I don't know. Or do I??? Somethings are bad. But i am making it worse. :: Why? : I don't know. I find myself doing wrong things that make me feel worse about myself. :: What kind of things? : Things that keep me away from God and take away from my self respect. Does this make any sense? or is it just signs of pathetic weakness? :: And u need to be as close to God as u can be at these moments.
: I need this more than anything else. But i hate to keep getting in this cycle - close, distance, close ...
:: Try to stay close then. Staying distant isn't an option.